sunrise

The Presence of God
As I sit here, the beating of my heart,
the ebb and flow of my breathing, the movements of my mind
are all signs of God’s ongoing creation of me.
I pause for a moment, and become aware
of this presence of God within me.

WELCOME Lord
I open the sluices a little.
I see the rosy touch [...]

morning prayer

I
You presence within
I reach out/in
And awareness bleeds
Slowly at first
Into my mind
Me heart is next
Sniffing the wind
Where is my God
Where is he now?
Follow the trail
Of joy
Abba? Abba?
I’ve lost your scent
Where are you,
God my Father?
I wait
You have not yet
Left me unattended
Never once that I have called
Have I remained alone
Then I look down
I feel the rhythm
I see you [...]

Job 2 — please no, God

The pool is deep today
The bottom not so clear
I drift in the gloom
Of my troubled heart
Yet you are here
With me in this
Your words of warmth
Buoy me up
Oh lord, I need you now
Now not to drown
But rather
Again to prevail
Drinking instead
From your sweetest streams
Flow in me my God
Flow in me now
Your cleansing and
Comfort
My only anchor
Draw me in
Draw [...]

surfacing again

I
You purposed me
Before I was
so I could be today
You never doubted
Should or shouldn’t I
Just in case I wasn’t
Good enough
So now I buy
That ancient gift
To use
What I can be
Your life in me
Your love in me
Your hope for me
Forever!

Jesus, father, spirit, I welcome your presence, abiding and eternal in me. You will [...]

morning psalm

 
 

Dear God. You are here, now, and I acknowledge you and I make myself available to you. You are present in all things, You are here, even when I don’t feel you but now I do feel you. You reach into me
Your tender touch enlivens my heart—
Your loving breath upon my soul
Coming to find [...]

pulling the scab off

The Presence of God
In the silence of my innermost being,
in the fragments of my yearned-for wholeness,
can I hear the whispers of God’s presence?
Can I remember when I felt God’s nearness?
When we walked together and I let myself be embraced by God’s love.

Y
ou are here, to the degree that I can let myself experience you. [...]

seeking the safe place

the joy is fragile
it trembles tenderly
a new-born notion
that everything is not
dangerously transient
that
in every magic moment
a let-down lurks
so my heart still welcomes
those well-aimed darts
that seek out the unhealed heart
those little particles of pain
where my old self still hungers —
I take my heart in hand
And still my taunting thoughts
Their history a vivid memory
Of almost-fatal [...]

ANOTHER MEDITATION.

The Presence of God
As I sit here at my computer, God is present,
breathing life into me and into everything around me.
For a few moments, I sit silently,
and become aware of God’s loving presence.

I receive you my Father. You are the source of my life. Finally I am beginning to understand that you are FOR [...]

anxiety 2

2005-07-13
Dear Father,
I am feeling a bit anxious about the next few weeks. I am trying not to think about the issues and the practical stuff too much, since I am on leave, but I am anxious. So I put it all into your hands father. Again I commit my heart and its fears to [...]

meditation 12-7-05

The Presence of God
As I sit here at my computer, God is here.
Around me, in my sensations, in my thoughts and deep within me.
I pause for a moment, and become aware
of God’s life-giving presence.
welcome jesus
it is still fresh in my memory the last time i was with you like this. i was so surprised to [...]