Everything goes in cycles.I am back and different from myself previously. In a better place, having received more healing. Having gotten to some of the cores issues that have wounded me.
A theme in my life is caretaker betrayal. Instead of having been protected at crucial moments in my life, I have either been punished or alienated. And its amazing how it works: when you have a theme like that, it can become like something that people hone in on like a shark after blood in the water. Children who have been abusd sexually or who are vulnerable to abuse have the same thing: people hone in on that and continue the abuse. Of course it is demonic. The Enemy knocks a wedge into your achiles heel and eventually that becomes either infested or oppressed.
I have been abandoned and punished and marginalised consistently in one way or another my whole life, even as late as last year.
But I have been healed a bit from that and it is showing. I am turning to the Lord again. (not that I turned away, just that I was unable to lift my head much!) I am reading some books that are reigning me in from the wild, out of control place I have been in for more than a year. I am thinking about the church again, and can’t help thinking that I want to find my place of belonging. I want to be part of something different and if I can;t find it I will most porbably start it!
Anyway…God is good and and that is good!
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I’m glad to see you posting. I’ve been checking in frequently!