This morning I am horrified at what I said about leaders yesterday, even if it is of necessity true. We cannot help incarnating our brokenness (wounding, sin whatever you want to call it) into our ministries. Our ministries are often manifestations of our own desire to gain significance. It is human and I have done it and am even more horrified now that I see some of the fruits of what I did with the best of intentions.
is the answer to not have organised church? I don’t think so, it is impossible to avoid some form of organisation. But the burden of pain and despair that is caused by church structures and people who are in leadership positions in such structures is the issue and I wish I knew the answer. There are MANY people who have drifted away from church as a result. Not all of them are pathetic little people who are living out their rebellion and wounding in a bitter and acidic rant against the church and leaders. Many have legitimate problems with the inevitable momentum of the juggernaut called church structure, when good intentions and the “seeing through a glass darkly” mix to apply discipline and then simple pride and ignorance mix to inhibit genuine reconciliation. It is a human condition and it seems like the joke God played on us, because there is no way we can get it right.
GGRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!GRACE!!! GRACE!!!RACE!!! GRACE!!!
We need grace. We need to accept that it is set up so that we will need him and never forget it and will have to be like him and not count every slight as he didn’t and count it and choose to face the hurt and desolation of human relationships and inhale the fragrance of dependence on him and knowing there is no way to avoid it but to do what we have to do in any case.
I wish I had the answer but I don’t. In the meantime I will choose the route of transformation, where I depend on him, and eat the bitter scroll.
Have mercy on us Lord! Maranatha! Come Lord jesus, come!
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