Its weird
to find
that I
have lost
so much
that was
myself
its strange
but I
have set
out to
discover
who
I am
so here’s
to me
the way
I am
I revel
in
the sum
who am
I then
that I
should argue
with
the Lord’s
own Son?
Giraffe # 1
seeking the safe place
the joy is fragile
it trembles tenderly
a new-born notion
that everything is not
dangerously transient
that
in every magic moment
a let-down lurks
so my heart still welcomes
those well-aimed darts
that seek out the unhealed heart
those little particles of pain
where my old self still hungers —
I take my heart in hand
And still my taunting thoughts
Their history a vivid memory
Of almost-fatal [...]
thoughts on denial
I have often thought of why it is so easy to cry about a beautiful sunset of some classical music, or to allow my heart to be melted by some poignant moment on TV in a series, when my heart is so numb to my real deep pain and anguish. Now that I am trying [...]
In the Light
…this morning i feel low. it seems that is all i say on this blog. i don’t always feel moved to blog when i feel good. then i am too busy doing other stuff.
i feel tense and anxious. it seems like there is too much that can go wrong. i probably don’t trust that God [...]
reaching out
reaching out
Originally uploaded by dampies.
touch me
i need the strength
i need to know i’m not alone.
all my desperate minions
divided and separate
splinters of soul
i need the sense of your heart
close to mine
today i am alone
no matter how many
mingle and mill where i am
so i
reach out
i tremble
tremble
tremble…
Tuesday, June 28, 2005 dear God all this…
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
dear God
all this talk about darkness. yet you wait patiently in my heart…after all, that is what in-dwelling means; i worship the one within, the Other. i stir up within me the presence of peace. you pass all understanding. i pay homage to the heavenly one. i enter the gate. you [...]
merde (anag: me red)
merde
Originally uploaded by dampies.
2005/06/27 8.45 am
“I take it you are there?”
I was mildly annoyed. She knew that I worried. Every morning when she left to take kids to school or to go anywhere for that matter, I said a ritual, yet heartfelt prayer. “The Lord protect you on the road!”. This [...]
