Have not been here for a long time. A lot has happened. Difficult to put into words. So I am just going to pick up where I am now. I have been using some tools that I have known about for a while and some I discovered recently, to work with my stuff. The [...]
Repent for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.
I have felt myself drifting slowly further and further from the mind-set which has prevailed in me for the last 15 years that I have been a Christian. I have accepted holus bolus what I have heard and not questioned at all. Now I find myself uncomfortable with what I hear in church. Make no [...]
Further to discipleship
I realise that when I make suggestive statements about leaders that obviously I implicate people that have been part of my journey even if I don’t mention their names. The writer of the proverbs says that God hates arrogance and back-biting. I am in danger of doing exactly what I say others have been guilty [...]
WHAT KIND OF PERSON AM I?
Dallas Willard says the following:in his book “Renovation of the heart”:
“We must clearly understand that there is a rigorous consistency in the human self and its actions. This is one of the things we are most likely to deceive ourselves about. If I do evil, I am the kind of person who does evil; [...]
what to do about leadership?
I have always been a leader simply because people are prepared to follow somebody who sounds like they know what the are talking about and who acts with conviction. I am now in a quandary. I am discovering depths of distrust in leaders that I only suspected are there. Did Jesus ever mean for us [...]
Leaders
Leaders have such a hard job shame.I don’t want to be led by anybody but Jesus anymore. I will be led by him as example and as Father and brother. It is much too easy to be wrong and think that you have covered all the bases. Relationship is the answer. Leadership is a cop [...]
down again
a cold fearhedged my heart inharsh wordsof running awayi set my jawlosing you is here againlike so many timessomebody says they’ll leavebut this time i’ll notprotect my hearti’ll take it on the chin and me a mani’ll take it on the chinpain cries in many voicesnot l of them minewe’ll pick up the piecesbecause we love
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That about sums it up
This blog will now be linked to my Face Book account. I was wondering whether to mix the two world or not, but why not. Most people who know me anyway know my story and whether I try to hide it or not, my life goes up and down like waves in a storm.
But generally [...]
Back again
Everything goes in cycles.I am back and different from myself previously. In a better place, having received more healing. Having gotten to some of the cores issues that have wounded me.
A theme in my life is caretaker betrayal. Instead of having been protected at crucial moments in my life, I have either been punished or [...]
A Blast from the past
It is nice when people who you have not seen or hard from contact you after a long time. I am always somehow in the position that I keep track of people or would like to keep track of them but somehow they don’t seem to have the same need. Then I perceive their attitude [...]
